Hasty answer from man can be a lie.

Just almost everynight... except for the guard duty nights(cuz never sleep)... dream'in. And the same person will always appear... (other than myself). Then it'll happen. Sometimes it don't.

THen i wonder... do i wait for things 2 happen or make things happen? Of course in this situation i do not have a clear idea of what God has planned for me. Pray about it lor...

I kept being reminded, God will not sent angels down to do what you are suppose to do yourself.

But what can i do?

No idea. I pray hard but... man... will just see that familiar face then... my heart overjoy...

proverbs 5:19..."a loving dove a graceful deer... ... may u ever be captivated by her love."

But i learnt... feelings sway... a person u luv can turn into enemy in a split second unless faithfulness and loyalty prevails. Trust only in God's unfailing love...

THat's why i wanna hurt not anyone just because of my own assumption but WAIT till there is a true confirmation from God.

Wait... wait... But little did i realise as days past, weeks past, months past... this feeling is like adding more coal to a bbq pit! The coal hot, hotter... boom burning in flames. I keep telling myself, feelings come and go... don't trust it. Feeling of love with her absence will eventually fade... haha! Never attempting to think about it at all. But... Why still so in love?

To love = testing of faithfulness... me? Faithful? Thank God I have learnt to be.

Still love my peppermint bubble tea though... haha!(They are yummy) Have not tasted it for months but still taste so good. But of course i don't mean i keep a cup of bubble tea for months... they will turn stale! Yucks!

Uncertainty lasted till the moment of a prayer answered.
Praise God who never fails.