Diary diary,

I love to talk to you. But you don't seem to be alive. Well, in fact i realise i am talking to myself.

Army training was tough. And i transcribed a song "Voice of truth".. However i think it is too tough for Crystal Wang, i will look aroung for something easy. "Take it all" as Elim says.. is meaningless. I agree.

I am loosing much feel for "rock".. sometimes it don't speak nothing at all about what the music is speaking. It just nail its way down on 2 and 4 as much as a metronome keeps time.

I am very very drained of rock.

:)

You look really cute when you smile.
no other song pleases my more than just to hear your voice.. .. ...
Rose said to me.
" Treasure me boy, very soon i will leave for good "
" If you happen to miss me... don't. "
Days pass and she turns pale. The last petal dropped.
Seeing roses shivering in the fridge,
Don't miss her who smiled at me.

I live in dreams.
I am living a dream even if i am awake. My mind is not logical, and i know there is no need to be. But here i am sitting in front of my laptop realizing that a conscious man is talking to an empty page, if i were conscious, why do i have to sit on a chair when i can wake up to an unconscious world. Every day i unwillingly continue this "daymare" of a world bound by laws. And find my self waking up at night to a place where things can be what i want them to be.

Oh no.. i am conscious for too long and it is eating into my reality of dreams.

Time to wake up, as i will go on to bed to wake myself up.

and i think i will sleep at 10am.. so here i am.. setting my alarm clock in this dream.

And there is an errie thing about my life, why is this daymare i am experiencing, a delayed alteration of what i have went through in my reality of dreams. People tell me in my dreams that it is Dejavu, but i think not, never trust anyone who talks in a dream, they are not awake.

Elim just said bye to me.. I think she is awake now on bed. Poor thing, she has to go back to sleep by 10am for some MOE thing.

Bye bye. I am going to bed. Daymare is soon over for the day.