This never seems to end

This is a funny life living inside a sphere.

As usual i had a rehearsal with my friends today at Odiocrib, Waterloo street, 4th level.
Bassist Christ, Guitarist Ryan and a vocalist Ron(not fixed) And me as a drummer.
It might sound like another child play band.. well.. perhaps not. I love the way each of them delicate time to practice for their parts, so must i.
And now after 3 rehearsals, we had a repertoire.

Everyone wants to rule the world, (12/8)
Englishman in New York, (reggae)
50 ways to leave your lover, (steve gadd)
and Yugyugan Na (Jazz funk)
Generally we play Jazz funk, we had fun, thats all.

What i am thinking is the way i am using my drums.
Is this a job? Yes, it might be a job, just like any other jobs.
What is the contribution then? Our hardwork to give audience the joy while listening?

Now as i play my drums i will have sudden surge of nostalgia. Visions of playing in church in the past, somehow makes me a little teary. Because it might be from then where i started. And it might be till then where i will end.

It will not be good to keep thinking how people might think.. although it is a necessity for good social behaviour, but my job is not something everyone will classify as a job. Somethings are just grey, you can't really tell black from white.

Shivam
Well, on tuesday, i was at Shivam's house.
I love the way the black 50kg bulldog welcome me, not forgetting the quiet giant Chow chow.
Manchu is the name of that black bull dog, he is very heavy! And sometimes smelly. And when it climb the stairs it will pant very heavily. LOL!
Sometimes when Manchu just stay under the drum chair and i wanted to push him away.. he just does'nt move an inch, imagine pushing a stone. And Mauchu will look at me with those "what is happening now?" Kind of eyes. LOL!
And when i am half way through the lesson, Manchu will lie flat on its stomach with limbs outstretched. If he were to move his limbs, it would look like he is swimming on the floor. LOL! Very cute.
Now i know why people keep bull dogs. I would love one too.
AT least it will be a great comfort to know that there is someone who is lazier than i am. LOL! And dumber.(New word)
Sihvam is learning well, hope he pays more attention during lesson next time.
Sohaana seems more obedient.
They love Mr bean at 5 30 thats for sure.

And Memory training has brought me no where, i am in fact turning a little crazy from all the strange techniques. And i am yes, becoming a little more unsociable. Thats the character of a nerd. Which i am turning into one.

Am i being ungrateful?
I realised that people will be happier if we could recall the things that they have done for us. Recall and thank them again. But i do not know how many times is enough.
But there are too many people around me to please. What is the meaning of being ungrateful? Actually i do not understand.
I have been rather silent to observe human behaviours that happen around me.

The sunday incident was most strange.
Sharlene wanted to stand. And pastor lau wanted to give her seat.
I asked her to sit on the floor but i think it was'nt a good suggestion.
And then Yee kei gave her seat and sit on the floor.
My action was classified as not gentlemanly, and Yee Kei was doing it right.
And Pastor praised Yee Kei, that everyone should have this attitude.

Mm, then again, Maybe i should have been nicer by proposing nicely that there could be an option of sitting on the floor.

I will classify this under plasticity of decision.
I can Say yes and means Yes.
I can say Yes and means No,
I can say No and means Yes,
I can say No and means No.

Other than these 4, the more complex will be
When i say yes and insist yes but I meant No.

It could extent out and in summary
What we say is actually not what we actually want to say.

If this plasticity of decision did not exist, I can imagine what happen.
Sharlene will Say, " I want to sit "
I will say, " Sit on the floor! "
Since she has considered my option and it is not good, I guess she will ignore this input.
Yee kei will say " You sit on the chair, i sit on the floor!"
Notice here that Plasticity of decision does not exist and Yee Kei really means she likes to sit on the floor so things are settled.

What if Yee Kei says, "Jiaxing you stand!"
Then I will consider this option too!
If it never resolves, Sharlene will now decide and say " I will stand!"
And willingly she stands and munch munch.

I was going to Ask Yee kei why her subway had not Vege in it! LOL! IT looked really thin and funny.

Anyway possible, observe more and soon i will distinguish the tone of a Yes meaning No.

Anyway possible i will learn to be better than who i was.

Then i am about to trace back to the times when i was baby. Babies in the stomach do see things. I remember when i was in my mom's stomach, i could see Red and hear the superman theme song. I donno if it is true, maybe i should ask my mom. Or check out if there was superman in 1987 from around march to november.