Thursday, May 31, 2007

Passion-flooded

Just a mere "twing" of a high note in the early morning as i was reading my daily devotional brightens up the dawn. Jason was there playing the guitar. And another arppegio of notes highlighted the chirping of cheerful sparrows. I looked out of the window as if in a "fermata" daze. As God swings His baton down again, a Symphony begins. May i join in? "Yes you are a part of this wonderful creation!"
"Awesome!" Tats how i feel! " Totally Awesome! Awesome God!!!"

Music really captivates me. When they really do bring out a meaning! But i never seem to be able to master this. All the scales and modes are the A B Cs... the intervals forming words... the progressions forming sentences... the thing is what brings these things to sense? How can a mere note out of a chord send tears down my cheek and another bring me to cloud9? And why does a fast rhythm causes adrenaline rush?

Too bad i am retard to reading jumpy music notes. Brain is underdeveloped at tat side. lol! Language idiot i call myself. Even now i know i have lots of grammer errors yet i do not know where. Nono... a weak limb can never stop me from running. Strengthen the Limb! Till i can Gallop with such grace! Only God can make a change.

God created eagles which roam the skies! Eagles find pleasure in flying cuz they are made to fly. Penguines find pleasure in tap dancing! Lol! And horses gallop with such elegance you can almost see them smile. Take a closer look and you see few who are perfect for this natural gift. Eagles do flap their wings in desperation before, horses do stumble. I just need to knock a few more times before the gift ripen.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Shopping for a cleassical guitarre

All those shiny and smooth surfaces and hour glass figures captivated mi Man! Wooden Grains on the tops running like lines drawn by rulers... and the price? 1000+s... That's a beauty man!

So, wada u looking for kid?, "Spruce tops.. allows potential for seasoning... cedar tops, no seasoning but nice bassy sound..." "... Try them!"

I finally set my heart upon this C2 guitar! If vincent(the sales guy) find one with bear claws( marks on wood tat will give nice tones), i will settle down on this model! Priced at $450! Lol! Thank God for my abundance!

Love God! Love Church! and Love your Gift!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Money... is this what we are working for?

A juicy $50 in my wallet! Mmm... buy some chocolate?

" U better save up for UNI ar! I am not going to pay for you!" said mummy...
" save up some money for your bus fare..." the imaginary Me said, " ...and remember to give $50 to mom... learn to do it. And learn to give more by faith to the church... How aboout your Faith pledge?? Learn to have Faith! But if you do not save and just spend wildly, no money is going to fall from the sky!..."

Imaginary me speak again, " didn't you wanna save up for this $562 classical C-2 guitar? "... " forget it!"...

The army pay is not really pathetically pathetic, it is enough... but not enough to give and expect to save ... moreover... it is allowance and not salary. God gave me a dollar to use... put the dollar in the bank and eat humbly? Use up the dollar to enjoy myself to fullest? Or give it to church in need and eat humbly? Or give it to church, in expectation of a double fold return from God --- Remember, money don't fall from the sky!!! Moreover God won't give u everything u ask unless you ask with self-less purpose. Wrong thinking!

Money is creating Trouble? Not at all tat i see... Instead it is my Black-hole desire for more things that is troubling... hey i want this and i want that... giving myself excuses for why i need it so badly... actually i do not...well... I need to change.

But in the end...

I tried this ice wine Chocolate, this vanilla wine... champange... and many other chocolates at Chocz... summing up to $5++ ... Wat an enjoyment! Thank God! I saved the rest.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Magnify

NOw, how do you magnify God's greatness?
Is he so small that you have to use a microscope to magnify it?
Definitely not!
Instead! He is SO SO Infinitely Great! Great in Power, in Love and in Mercy that... in awe will you look at Him! After all, Just by words, He made the earth! And He formed us from plain atoms of Carbon and Hydrogen and Nitrogen..etc.
Just as a telescope magnifies a star, tat's is how God should be Magnified!

You see the sun so small in the sky, but yet you know it is so ENORMOUS and MAGNIFICIENT! Tell a 3 years old about this, show them and they will be in awe!

Now i see God SO GREAT! As far as East is separated from West! North from South!(Not within earth boundaries, i m refering to universe boundless-ries! That's how Great God's Love for us is! Tell my frens, but they do not comprehend!
Now, it is time to magnify and show them!!

Friday, April 06, 2007

Musical

I was in awe! Something more Beautiful than a Large Scale Musical is happening right in front of me! Grander than Majestic Opera Stage! Ideas Greater than Aristotle philosophy! Scenes just as authentic as Wildlife documentary!

The worship today was Great! It is not great just because of the beautiful music and harmonious choir. But Great, Just Great! Because of God's Wonderful Orchestration at work!!!
If life were a stage, Jesus will be a Flawless actor bringing the Perfect script about a perfect man to life. But of course, even professionals stumble on stage. Life can be a stage, but just a rehearsal stage, mistakes are tolerated,but never overlooked --just as sins are forgiven but will be brought to judgement. All of us rehearse everyday, trying to achieve perfection in the script given to us, bringing Pleasure to the script writer in occasional Full-dress Rehearsals. Eventually, bringing Glory to the script writer in the day of Actual Performance!
Sadly, so many reject their scripts. Reasons unknown. I do rebelliously reject some scripts added to me at times, and eventually someone else took over the role and did it. Sometimes i even change the lines/acts in scripts, thinking..."IT IS A TIME for me to Ad lib-"improvise" !see my creativity! Hehe!" And consequences are, I realise how foolish i am... Things will just work perfectly only if i follow.
And when it is time for me to "improvise" I just stop what i do, thinking... "Improvise?? Where are my lines? Maybe the idea is to idle and slack! Take 5! Haha!" But what the script really means is to think for myself and display creativity, making the whole act work! Action now! But still i slack!
(my mind twirl through the black hole, warped in time and came back... digress too much. oops.)
Imagine the director of this Great Stagework is Hitler! One mistake and "Bang!" brain splatter on the floor! Terrible is'nt it! Only one Of Perfect Mastery and obedience could survive such high demand! We stand no chance at all. But thankfully the director is no such strick-o as Hitler! But this director and also the script writer is full of LOVE and Passion for his stage crews.
In an attempt to show everyone the true mastery of stage, he wrote a script so Physically and emotional challenging that...Earth trembles... at the completion of this script! "Thunder roll!" Just for this Man, flawless and perfect ever since birth the script was directed! He is SO TALENTED that He is born for this script and "professionalism" demanded him to die for this work! This man, so dear to the director that no one else can replace him in his heart! Yet, the work was complete... this man died! On stage! Applauds! He retired after this last Grand Work! Now He sits beside the director, telling the rest.. "See you can do greater works than i! Cuz I will guide you along! My spirit be with you!"

... Oh no this is going nowhere, ok this is just an analogy. I really Thank God for this Great Love for us. So Great, may i do all i can to Glorify Him. The script, a lamp to my feet a light to my path!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Friday, March 30, 2007

Prime Suspect

Oh man... I was trapped in a room. The dead silence just pierce the air producing ultrasound. " Man I have done nothing! I know nothing and I am suppose to be the last man on your Investigation List!!! "

One by one they confront me!
" So... tell me... *BANG TABLE!!* tell me EVERYTHING u know!"...
" I know YOU ARE HIDING SOMETHING FROM US!!!"...
" Think of your future, Do U know you can't go into uni if you have Records!"...
" Don't cover for your friends anymore... EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF!!!"
" Later we are going to put up in jail overnight!"
" Why do you still look so calm! Do you know the seriousness of this! Normal person would panic... You are just BO CHAP aren't you!!!"

Time passed so slowly... 10am.. 12pm...3pm... 10 30pm.. 11 30pm...

" You are obviously hiding something from me!!!"

( I laughed, with minimal sanity )
Me: " I don't know!!! , I am desperate now! Just put me under the Lie machine LA!!!"

Thinking to myself:(Btw I am trained in facing worse torturous interrogation.. and not that i have a Bo Chap Attitude! Of course I tremble not! Just DON'T WASTE MY TIME!!! I kNOW NOTHING!!! MY words just don't go into tat THICK SKULL OF YOURS!!! Oh man wat is this attitude i have? I am obviously turning insane! )

Finally released at 11 30pm!

I AM PRIME SUSPECT FOR A CASE! Investigation in Progress! Man!!! If I find the culprit... AHhh! Clentch fist! But Thank God i am out!

(Above info is CLASSIFIED! No names or places mentioned! Authenticity is 100% but treat it as just another day for me!)

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Helen Keller

I went to the library and this book came across me. "Helen Keller" Although it is in the children section, I don't care much.. Just pick up and borrowed it... seems interesting.

This is a girl who was deaf and blind and "dumb"-or mute at the age of 11 months old. Helen's experiences just inspires me, touches me. God just so blessed her with this chance to learn to express herself.
Spelling words into the small hands of hers, her teacher patiently taught this rebellious girl about the world. Till one day there was a berak-through. It all happened at this tap. While Helen was drawing water into her mug, her teacher spelled "water" into her other hand. Just as the cold water gushed down her hand, she dropped her mug. It's all so clear to her now, Language.. Words. Instantly she pointed to ask the name of the ground, the tap, everything around her and finally her "teacher". In a short span of one month, Helen grasped hundreds of vocabulary. Her willingness to learn finally brought her success. A little world of darkness and dispair turned into Colour and music and Light by that imagination of hers.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

musicality... Oh... I finally see the light!

Got a book on "motivic soloing" from Yamaha!! Yea! Finally get the chance to learn to analyze solos! Just Cool! Working on it... After this i guess i won't "nonsense" solo anymore! Haha! And working on Percussion style drumming in "Latin". Man!! This is Pure... "COOL!!" Nevertheless, Thank God for this pair of hands and feet. Oh man, I wonder can i live without??? I can live without bathing..LOL... but can't survive w/o... my hands!

Mmm... Recently just feel a bit down... Thank God for the unchanging love.. tat i know i am loved!

But!!! Donno Y Just feel so "drummy"... Finger just wanna Tap around! This must be the Peak of my Drummy feeling! LOL! Oh! And crystal! Appetite GREATER than 10 000 trillion Locust!!! I am AMAZED! World PREMIER!!! WOnder how she will look when Chubby.. Sure very cute like Kola Bear! Haha! LOL!!! Oh man, Saw her fingers today, very agile! Pure beautiful! The music too! Only if i were a pianist... I would have so many things i wanna play!!! Haiz... I know God start me up as a drummer for a reason...

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

House Visiting

Went house visiting with Kun and Frens (Let me specify)- Jun Jian, Jia He and Jin Chong. Haha. FUn Day!

The cute little boy at JiaHe house just make me wanna laugh... Look like the cartoon LA PI XIAO XIN! HAHAHA!! ULtiMAte CUTE la!!! HAHaha!

Then watched 'Snake On Plane'Disc1 in Kun House... Man!! Got some uncensored SECNES!!! M18 i suppose. THe snakes bite the couple while they were in the toilet... *adult content*... And some GroSS scenes! *vomit*

Oh! And Jun Jian's sister! Very cute too! Haha! But I was wondering at first Y she don't wanna talk, then when she started toking, ALL English!! And Jun Jian is in a Chinese speaking family! ???Mystery!! Then She started toking MALAY!!! HAHa! Shockin! She likes 2 watch Babie doll though.. got link?

Then proceed to this stranger house, Andreas, Kun's Fren! But i don't know her. Played poker and forfeit with food GORGing! Weird, Jia He just never lose... Gamble King man!

Last destination, Jin CHong House! First time play Majong! At first very blur about it, Now finally know how 2 play! PONG! Hu! Haha! After a while quite SiaN le.

Today is just pure JOY and FUN!
Hav never been so HIGH ever since Last last SUMMER! Now's Spring! Wake me up when September ends... ORD lo! Haha! Ok i am a person who cools down real Fast! Yawn! Nostalgic! Suddenly tot of someone who sat on my bicycle and fell off! Fell real Hard!! OUCH! Painful Xia! Flashes of memories! Then got lorry come... I STUN tio! AHHHhhh!!! SUddenly remember my CAR accident! ShoCK! PONG AH! Majong! Haha!! Totally no link also can think of it Xia! JIAXING! RELAX!!! Your left Brain is clashing with your right! doing a paradiddle-LRLLRLRR then a FLAM-lR,rL...then Drag-llR, rrL! Latin Rhythm!!! COol! ok! I Tink i should Stop toking No nonsense Yao! Americans are just talented Wrappers ...oops I mean Rapper! Haha! CHill chill! Fun Day!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Valentine's Day, u are my all.

Going to achieve big on that special day!!! Run and run till i win the Race!!! Army stuff, classified.*end*

Just feel a bit bottled up. I think next time i should not screw myself up too tightly. Oh man... i am starting to sprout nonsense.

Nevermind... spending a few insane periods out of all my sane moments just helps me relief.*sigh*

God, forgive me for all these nonsense.

If ever i turn insane, God, remind me of your love.
If ever i cannot recognise anyone, Jesus, stay beside me and be my trusted friend.
One day, i may lose my sight, but God, let faith be my eyes.
I may not hear anymore, but God, i know u turn off the volume of the world so that i can hear you clearly admist the silence.
Let the last few words from my lips be... "i love you..."
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And if you still allow me for one last word... it'll be "Jesus"

Friday, January 26, 2007

Behind e mask of the greatest "disguised" Looser!

Breakthrough.
Thoughts keep flashing...

Edison did not believe a beard cannot act as filament... (if that is stupidity)... he tried.

He FAILED!!!

If ever a man tell you "you can never be what you aspire to be."
Stupid dreams!... but Y not turn a deaf ear to it and TRY!

and you FAIL!!!

If human Will collapse easily with the slightest negative comment.
filaments could just be plain iron...

If Edison didn't dare try the beard, he wouldn't even think of trying mecury, aluminium.. or even tungsten!

He SUCEED!

Well Try again!

This idea marks the start of human's "Stubborn" nature...
"stubborn" to those in doubt/trapped in a mind box
"determination" to those with a vision

Oh well... just some tots flashing through... the train terminates for new insights.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

dream... Act according to plan...

There is this Mozart i know... And a talented guitarist... and a gifted vocalist.
We somehow... amazingly share a dream... Musician!
We somehow... amazingly share the same genre of music...
God somehow amazingly brought us together...
If it is God's will may things work out according to His good and perfect plan.
Glory be to God! And We all agree!
In this plan, All Honor and Glory is God's!
And all Joy and Love is given by God for us to share!
Just commit this band into God's mighty hands!!
This could be the start of something BIG! ... First Stop... Let's Jazz at Fish&Co...