WOrkING...

Haha... first day of work giving flyers... Working with this new friend..
Musthakhim... MUST-HAcK-HIM( this is how i remember his name)... Haha... Oops
He is cool... and of course friendly too! All Malays are very friendly ppl... We will be working for this week at the exit of Raffles Place MRT station...

One thing i find nice is the way people smile when you approach them... It always lightens my heart... and of course i smile more and more because they smile at me...
then when i approach one auntie and we just laughed when i give her the flyer...HAHaha!

Thank God so much for the joy everywhere i go. HAha!

Oh and we Cross-Bearer bears went out for an outing! And sniff... my wallet went broke again... and got scolded by mummy... But HAha! I am jus happy i had fun! Money cant buy Friends and Fun and Love and Joy and all nice feelings...

I had a pool game... i mean 2 pool games with Banana1 Ruben! HAha! That was the nicest pool game i ever had! Although just 2 but very fun! Haha! Wow! We just played like Pros! Balls rolling in one by one and we finished a game very fast!!!

And thank God for such a nice Bro... many good things in this Gentleman. And nice friends... and Thank Martin for that 5 dollars to save my head from rolling on the floor( My mom will hack it down) Everyone is so special! And so loving! HAha! Off to give flyers! GIvivg is a JOY!!!

The real LAST lap in my exam race!

Finally! After 2 weeks... I'm going to face my top FEAR!!!
BIO Paper 3!!!
Sounds scary enough??? No??? Then here comes again!!!
BIOLOGY PAPER 3!!!
Haha... ok... That's all i wanna say!

Haha! And Thank God for such a comforting presence...
This reminds me of something...

..." Your presence is more important than your presents"...

((FIRST saw this in an sms from my penpal... Haha... that Christmas night...i rush all the way from Orchard to Hougang jus to send some joy to her before Christmas ends... it was 11.45pm i think... haha How childish of me as i think back... HAhahahaha!!! HAhahaha!!! I actually tot i was Santa Claus!!! HAHAHAH!!! I actually tot there is Santa!!! HAhahaha!!! Wait a minute... is there?))

Oh... so meaningful... Lord...
I do not long for any special gifts from you but i jus wanna know that you are always with me...
Ok! Amen!

Oh no... Getting all confused...

Sometimes... I got a strike back of emotions... then all emotions gone again...
How to describe...
Like u got shot in the heart and ... Aey... actually it is an air gun. Complicated.

It is all about LOVE... the World is full of False love... Many are hurt as a result...
Only if one truely understand that Love is from God... The true and unconditional love...
How good if i know this earlier... But at least now i know...

Sometimes... thinking about it... being jus friends is still better. Much better.

... deep in thought...
[And! Thinking too much is not good too... maybe it will give you a better memory as a result... but also... more wrinkles and more worries too... (from inspection)...]

Haha! WOrry-free and trust in the Lord with all thine heart i have learnt... still learning...

while writting a letter for my pen pal... i realise how childish i was then...

Excited... how is my life going to change from this point onwards... Dreaming...(realise i'm not thinking)... ( not worrying too)... for all is planned for my own good...
Will i be a doctor saving lives? An engineer doing expt.? A fighter pilot enjoying the speed? A drummer in studio doing recording? A freelance artist pouring out creative brain juice? A teacher nurturing young lives?

I admit i was greatly impact when Reverend Lau stared at me and asked...
"What is you DREAM?"
Of course, obviously, i was dreaming during the preaching so i got a shock.
I almost replied..." Char Sow Rice!" cuz lunch time is near...Haha

(Jus like that Friday when Pastor Steven talked about "what Drives your life?"
When he asked..." What drives you to church?" I was actually thinking about *bus 854*...Alamak!!! What am i thinking!!!)

But i still answered:"Still dreaming..."...SO... What is my dream?
... I will have to pray hard for God's leading...And Praise the Lord for such a nice day!

Dreams...

I'm learning to rest in the Lord... and trying to discipline myself...
and asking God for help to change my character to be more like Jesus.

But ... Strange ... I am getting more and more dreams... I wonder where these dreams are from...
I see myself so sinful and many many more bad characters in my dreams...
Maybe these are areas i must improve and change on...
I am greatly impact and touched and changed by some of my dreams... hopefully it is for the better...

Also ... I keep getting paralysed on bed... and some dreams are just a preview for my days ahead...

Ai... Shouldn't say too much cuz i am still not sure if it is from God...

... perhaps i'm jus too stressed...

Haha... Maybe I got a brain tumour and is getting some of the symptoms...

Jus have the ask God for the answer during my QT...

And Praise God for giving so much Strength and energy to last through these 2 weeks of Exam stress and torture... I will be in IMH by now if not for God's comforting presence...
One more week to go!!!!
I really see myself changed... Even more hardworking and determined than usual!!! Thinking back... the playful OLD boy who plays Dota and Gameboy Advance all day(Megaman battle network)...and watch childish cartoons...(Confession is good)... is now sitting down for a real time study! Haha!!! No more childish games for grown up Xingxing!

Prepare your life to face the judgement day for it is near...

How embarassing if God ask... "What do you have to say for that long hours spent watching Pokemon and Digimon at 18 years of age?"... should i say... " Erm... ---I WanNa be a hEro! POkeMoN---!" or... " Where is my digivice?"... worse still... "MegaMan! JAck IN! I'll send u more chips!"

Haiz... I'll jus confess.. " I jus wanna love my didi more by understanding his interest."... I hope my family will all be saved by then...

Nostalgia...

While i was keeping my birthday cards into my golden treasure box( which stores precious memories)... I jus reached and picked up a reply letter from my friend Seok Ping( primary school classmate)... 2 pages long... Something strike me... I don't remember reading this letter before(Maybe my memory is failing me again)... But... Haha... I was so so so Childish at that time... But quite cute also... Hahaha... I remembered drawing alot in my letter... The drawings must be very ugly... But... We must really cherish our friends around us.

Actually i was thinking of something else... I really want all my friends to spent eternity together in heaven... Lets run the race till the end for the end is jus a beginning to eternity!

I was also wondering... ... what did i write in the letter she replied to... Mmmm... Sometimes it is a joy writing letters... Like Giving a surprise and also receiving a surprise if there is reply... HAha...

But still Hallelujah for all the friends I have met... I love U Father for these wonderful and lovely creations.
Mmmm... but today i m jus so happy. So blessed and loved... And big sis and mei mei were hugging and crying... so touching... And i get to eat 2 chunks of honey comb chocolate which i tot was nut chocolate. How nice if everyday were Sunday! Haha what nonsense.

HAhaha...

STEADY... DONT SHAKE... AND PIERCE!!!!...( following this was a big mess u wouldn't want to see)... Haha! 

GIMME I TEACH YOU!!! COME I TEACH YOU! 

NO LA U STUPID GeGE! I teach you! 

Ok... One final stab and it's done! 

Happi Birthday to Me... 

AHHhhh!!! Not me!!! The cake! Cake!! The CAKE!!!! 

Lets pose... Ready to strike! 

A fruity cake for me 18th birthday!!! 

Too serious... and what's that beside you? Nice spot for a photo! Haha... 

OK Ok, Get serious. 

Where am i ??? 

Us! And the other one??? 

Who's that Pokemon(s)!