First Luv

*THUNDER*

Flashback...
When was this first love? That gentle voice, that gentle hug, all those valuable lessons learnt ... How can I forget all that You have done for me?

Elim: "Do you love Him?"

Flashback...
When i was sad... who comforted me? When i was wrong... Whose thunderous voice reminded me? When i was weak... who held me by the hand and led me on? How can i forget how You were always there for me?

Elim: "Do you love Him?"

Me: "... Yes ..."
Questions rang through my head... "still love Him?"...
Me: "... But... ... " ( i felt there is something amiss in my YES)

My love is uncertain... unclear... but i'm certain God always loves me.
This is a question which is somewhat humanly impossible to answer "YES" without boundless faith. Yes you love God now but will you still love Him in time to come? You love Him but will you still love Him forever?

If I ask God... Do you love me?... the answer will be YES.
If I am asked... Do you love God?... Never can i answer on the spot, let my life be the answer...

Oh God please teach me.