changing

No one is perfect... quite negative har... how about "Everyone is special."
Today i saw a special group of people on bus 854. They are students from a special school-- for the mentally slow and extremely pure and innocent people. Then i got a stupid idea... what if people were all like this... would there be less corruption? Haha. Of course it is a stupid idea. Satan will still do his work among us.
Sometimes, i feel i am thinking too much... when you really care alot on how people will think of you and judge you, you are just creating a prison for yourself, limiting yourself. Image. Thinking back, there are so many things i can do but i did not. And there are so many things i don't want to do but i did. All to please people around me. And after a while, i realised my life is going hay wired.
But it is different if i aim to please God everyday, every minute, every second. My life seems more in place, every thing just come out right. That's the purpose i'm designed for, that's the purpose of His creation. World is changing and so hard to conform. Sometimes i try to love everyone but some will just suspect me and reject my love. But still i will love. Just like, no matter how much God loves me and his love never change, there will always come a point where i suspect him... how evil of me har. And i realise how it hurts...
God, i love you i don't wanna hurt you. That's what i really want to mean in my life everyday. Really thank God so much for teaching me how to love in this ever changing world.