Hand Pistol... and .. rabbit ears? wat  

Head count! 

Cheek to cheek! 

Me and Anzen 

Reuben and Anzen 

Raffles and Anzen 

Math disagreement... Generation gap! 

Centuries of dirt in his nostrils. 

Trading in progress.. 

WHO DID THIS? 

What's Up There? 

Reub is drunk? 

Waves! 

Smiliez! 

Hugz the lamp post! 

Earthquake in Underpass!  

S'pore river 

How many cups of coffee drank? 

Cheers 

Just Noodle 

Hornet Attack!

Walking into the shoulder length grass patch, i saw >5-6 hornets flying all around...
I tot it would be ok since i have seen so many and not got stung... so i just look around for enemy. Seeing there is no enemy, i turned and walked out!
The moment i turn... guess what! The hornet gave a surprise farewell kiss just above my neck... feeling harassed, i swat it away. Then it took me by my hand and kissed me again! Of course i ran for my life!
Although this is the first time i got attacked by hornet but i felt a sense of assurance that i will not die... my buddy who was with me also got 1 sting on the head.
Waa!!! Felt like... a hot needle stuck in my flesh... Then it felt like 10 red hot needles all around the wound... then 20...
Painful Man!!! I ask Jesus to reduce the pain for me so i can take it... but still very pain... But my fren asked me... "how come you look like you don't feel anything?" ... *Calm face* i said.. " Don't worry go see medic."
Thank God i am still alive and kicking... still got a chance to catch some sleep at medical centre while my friend is in pain till his whole leg shake. I closed my eyes and prayed silently for healing for both of us... kept praying.. God is at work here... slowly the pain diminished... and i mean SLOWLY... Till a point of sane bearability... Hallelujah! God never gives anything too pain for us to bear!
I now recovering from the poison... Amazingly 2 days and my friend is fighting fit. Thank God again!

Forest

Imagine yourself sitting in the forest from morning till night and night till morning... keeping quiet... with only 2 buddies 10m away.

I don't need to imagine le... Really scary man!!!
Getting some frogs or ants or grasshoppers or spiders on your face or shirt is totally normal.

But the most scary part is when i was sound asleep at 5am( did't get caught )... then i was dreaming myself playing the drumset... i dreamt of my old conductor Miss Tan... then she is about to conduct... ... then,
"BANG!!!" my buddy just fired a shot right beside my ear! Ahhh!!! I almost went MAD from SHOCK man! Felt like i was shot... Quick flashback! Haha... took around 2 minutes to come back to sense.

Haha! I am a timid fellow after all!

Thank God for staying with me throughout the night and protecting me... Or else timid me will be in mental hospital now... scared to death! HAha!

Sick le.

Suddenly fell so sick and so weak.
Flu... Coughing non stop... mild fever.
But in all ways still Thank God for i am still alive.
Maybe it this is what means by getting in return what you interceed for others...
I prayed for this sick person and i fell sick. Haha. Man! i can still joke at this moment!
I'm amazed! Haha.

Beautiful but all watched alone 

Shh... 

BONG 

boom boom boom 

boom 

Run and be caught... Hide and be seen

Director: God - The ONE behind it ALL!

Him... RUNning away... thrown out and like a prawn swallowed by a whale.

Him... A man who cannot put down that hatred for enemies...
"SEE THEM DIE!"...
"God! Why save them?"

Him... Still so disobedient as always just like what men were born to be.

Jonah!
Inspired to be "sucessful at failure".

Catch the fire to RUN your way to HELL!
Remember! God controls it all... Be the pawn or be the prawn.
it All is a Choice of man and Mercy of God.

Hasty answer from man can be a lie.

Just almost everynight... except for the guard duty nights(cuz never sleep)... dream'in. And the same person will always appear... (other than myself). Then it'll happen. Sometimes it don't.

THen i wonder... do i wait for things 2 happen or make things happen? Of course in this situation i do not have a clear idea of what God has planned for me. Pray about it lor...

I kept being reminded, God will not sent angels down to do what you are suppose to do yourself.

But what can i do?

No idea. I pray hard but... man... will just see that familiar face then... my heart overjoy...

proverbs 5:19..."a loving dove a graceful deer... ... may u ever be captivated by her love."

But i learnt... feelings sway... a person u luv can turn into enemy in a split second unless faithfulness and loyalty prevails. Trust only in God's unfailing love...

THat's why i wanna hurt not anyone just because of my own assumption but WAIT till there is a true confirmation from God.

Wait... wait... But little did i realise as days past, weeks past, months past... this feeling is like adding more coal to a bbq pit! The coal hot, hotter... boom burning in flames. I keep telling myself, feelings come and go... don't trust it. Feeling of love with her absence will eventually fade... haha! Never attempting to think about it at all. But... Why still so in love?

To love = testing of faithfulness... me? Faithful? Thank God I have learnt to be.

Still love my peppermint bubble tea though... haha!(They are yummy) Have not tasted it for months but still taste so good. But of course i don't mean i keep a cup of bubble tea for months... they will turn stale! Yucks!

Uncertainty lasted till the moment of a prayer answered.
Praise God who never fails.

wad m i tinkin?

DO ya kno there are so many things that i never said to ppl i wanna say... I always said it to Jesus first... But after that... i tell my best frens... but now i realise frens seldom give good advice... God do.
But sometimes i feel so curious about some things i go and try... Just like i walk'in home and see "Cheers"... feel'in thirsty i open up the fridge and saw..."NITE" 5%... wada it taste like? 2 bottles for $6? EX! But only when i try i know if worth it. Gulp'in down 2 bottles 600ml i still feel thirsty... ah... so hot. and i slept... half way i woke up itching all over. It is then i realise i am allergic to alcohol... I was praying hard... Jesus i am sorry please help me!
Sometimes being awaken seems so terrible.. look around and i just see sleepwalkers. So feeling uncomfortable i just join in the sleepwalk while still awake. Who else can wake those asleep other than those awake? But those awake seeing their frens all asleep can easily fall asleep again.

Future...

Remember the first time when my teacher in k1 asked me... " What do you wanna be in future?"

My first direct answer was..."police man"... cuz policeman was the only word i can pronounce with minimal stutters.

my second dream as i grew older was... "scientist"... cuz i always get A* for science... even beating the elite class in EM1 although i am the last hopeless class in EM2.

my third one was... "pilot"... cuz i got an invitation to be a fighter pilot in RSAF... but... I failed the interview.

my fourth and most recent which i never ever dreamt of or tot of was... " Traditional chinese Doctor"... cuz i got a place in NTU double degree Biomed/TCM.

Man... I am like wandering about feeling so uncertain... Haha... How nice would it be if God give me my life schedule... but... Haha! nonsense... If i would to get hold of it, surely i would not learn a single thing as days pass by... just like carrying out a routine everyday to meet the schedule. So... it is not a bad thing being uncertain of my future... just be an obedient lamb... where my sheperd is... where my green grass will be also...

First Luv

*THUNDER*

Flashback...
When was this first love? That gentle voice, that gentle hug, all those valuable lessons learnt ... How can I forget all that You have done for me?

Elim: "Do you love Him?"

Flashback...
When i was sad... who comforted me? When i was wrong... Whose thunderous voice reminded me? When i was weak... who held me by the hand and led me on? How can i forget how You were always there for me?

Elim: "Do you love Him?"

Me: "... Yes ..."
Questions rang through my head... "still love Him?"...
Me: "... But... ... " ( i felt there is something amiss in my YES)

My love is uncertain... unclear... but i'm certain God always loves me.
This is a question which is somewhat humanly impossible to answer "YES" without boundless faith. Yes you love God now but will you still love Him in time to come? You love Him but will you still love Him forever?

If I ask God... Do you love me?... the answer will be YES.
If I am asked... Do you love God?... Never can i answer on the spot, let my life be the answer...

Oh God please teach me.

changing

No one is perfect... quite negative har... how about "Everyone is special."
Today i saw a special group of people on bus 854. They are students from a special school-- for the mentally slow and extremely pure and innocent people. Then i got a stupid idea... what if people were all like this... would there be less corruption? Haha. Of course it is a stupid idea. Satan will still do his work among us.
Sometimes, i feel i am thinking too much... when you really care alot on how people will think of you and judge you, you are just creating a prison for yourself, limiting yourself. Image. Thinking back, there are so many things i can do but i did not. And there are so many things i don't want to do but i did. All to please people around me. And after a while, i realised my life is going hay wired.
But it is different if i aim to please God everyday, every minute, every second. My life seems more in place, every thing just come out right. That's the purpose i'm designed for, that's the purpose of His creation. World is changing and so hard to conform. Sometimes i try to love everyone but some will just suspect me and reject my love. But still i will love. Just like, no matter how much God loves me and his love never change, there will always come a point where i suspect him... how evil of me har. And i realise how it hurts...
God, i love you i don't wanna hurt you. That's what i really want to mean in my life everyday. Really thank God so much for teaching me how to love in this ever changing world.

time speaks

Today watched a very touching documentary about a beautiful gal who got disfigured by her husband, however she continued to live her life with the love of God in her heart.
Pondering... never understand why and how such great anger comes about... never understand why money gives happiness. Then suddenly think about family. I suddenly wonder if i will love money as time goes on...and when i start a family. But now i always feel i have enough...unless i am asked for money... haha:D so blessed.
Feeling very sad every time i hear about money... made a mistake for trying to help my fren... realising now that i cannot solve everyone's problem. Gave a huge sum of my saving for my fren's job promotion as a sales girl then now realising that all she want is... "more money equals more happiness." Btw she is just my junior that's all. That was long time ago... and i realised my dad keep nagging about it... he say he did rather gamble it away than to do such stupid thing. I was wrong too- not seeking if it is God's will to do such a thing even though it is not wrong to help... Saul's incident.
Although i'm aware that my bank account had been emptied... no big deal... can't i still have happiness? Haha. Have la... cuz i still have God who gave me angels to supply my needs. How wonderful.
Then... I felt sad when i realised that almost all girls like rich husbands. Then that is when i give up on bgr. How fake. Wife turns ugly, husband change of heart. Husband turns poor, wife change of heart. However, ugly women or poor guys, God still loves them.
Nearing the age of family planning, but how many are matured enough. marriage=life long commitment. I'm certain i'm still not ready, till i really am commited to love God as He loves me. Haha... wondering if it is too far i think. People change too. Then 2 days ago my jie told me... girls might change from gentle to fierce... then i ask what if i marry fierce girl, will she turn gentle? Haha.. childish me. Fierce will remain fierce... that's my jie's philosophy. Empty talk la.
Then as i think i suddenly remember what Pastor Patrick preached about... for real love, time will determine. As time goes on the passion will grow... God decide.
How long have i kept this from everyone... shouldn't keep it from Jesus. How can i hide it from His eyes. I'll pray about it. Haha. I guess i always give an impression of a small boy who knows nothing more than to nod to instructions and to smile worries away...

I'm back

Time flies huh... Looks like i have stopped blogging for a quite few months. Haha... I'm BACK!
Wa... really THank God for a place in NUS in BioEngineering. Previously i tot i was going to be a nurse one day... after a interview in nursing... Haha.. and i answered the interviewers stupidly... that's the result when you don't seek God to help ya! HAha... Too embarassed to tell anyone what i answered. HAha. ( donno why i feel like a clown nowadays... every answer i gave seems like a joke) SO... I just drift around and just let God steer me to where i nid to go. He close and open doors and then close and then open doors for me and... I was quite lost at first but DOnno is it my hack-care attitude... i don't really worry much about what i will do in future. Not a good thing to model... brothers and sisters out there... pls do not adopt this attitude i have cuz i have bin prayin hard... beli hard.. that within this year i wanna 2B diff. no more old JX... But one with a character like My besT Fren... My saviour.

Btw... watched MI2 yesterday and Haha... Great movie. Tom looks like one of my officer in camp.. haha. Very excitin movie... but all the operations are too smooth 2B humanly possible. haha. and the wepons pop out from nowhere and haha... when Cruise was asked how many rounds left 2 kill... he said enuf... Wa I tot alot man... then He shot 1 and killed... and haha... "I finished mine too" cool.

However, there is 1 thing i am worried about. My intellect seems to be plunging. Soldiers are not supposed to think. I was being told one day. Haiz.. well, too bad. If that's how they define discipline, i have got no power to defy authority. Cuz they emphasized again and again, Insubordination can be charged. And u know- GUARD DUTY! Ahh! Thank God that this month i will have no guard duty so... Haha... HAha!!! Freedom!!! I'm free!

Oh no... I really nid to spend more effort on my quiet time nowadays ... words = sleeping pills. Really nid to pray hard for the passion...