A good Dreamer translates crazy ideas from imagination into action

Not so recently, the idea of individuality has been tormenting me from head to soles.

Sometimes ideas can be disjointed, yet if analysed, ideas are part of a process called maturation and its product, wisdom.

The most recent idea i encountered is "simplicity"

"Simple is beautiful" from my fren's msn nick,
"Get a simple idea and explore it" from Dave weckl's natural revolution,

The word "simple" used to be despised by me as mediocre, and relates to some brainless activities like reciting "abc".

but

Now i have a totally different perspective towards it. Beautiful is just the word.

It is no coincidence that when you have a concept, you will find the whole world agreeing to it as if it is a new found fact.
Even if they don't agree openly, they are actually agreeing in other subtle ways which are totally oblivious to the ignorant public yet too mandane for the informed few.

Now if no one is following me i apologise.. i apologise to my cynical attitude towards a few architectural essays which i do not understand and i thought it is crap... now that is certainly not always true. Certainly if many ideas are written solely for accelerating the process of mental maturation, then the world would certainly open its eyes and come to an agreement.
This also reminds me to keep my words few here, so i won't waste my time looking at crapy selfish pointless essays that i spill so as to remind myself of the ugliness which is not a fact.

Consider this, if ugliness exist, it is where beauty thrive. If the whole world of ideas are good, which then is better? Bad ideas accentuates our receptivity to good ones. Sadly the handicaps(mentally blinded) need some aid, and it is through the use of concise ideas that will cut their corneas like lasik. And most importantly, cut their exposure to the bright luring rays of ignorant and critical company.

Only if News company is taken over by "Facts" company.
Is it true the wise never act and the brave never think?

Stop thinking so much, you are destroying your sight reading skills. Lol!

Thinking about God, thinking of God, thinking for God.

I have realise the real Passion in me.

Learning.

There is nothing as exciting as being a noob. I love it.. and when i am no longer a noob, i find other situations other skills where i can be a noob again. And it repeats itself.

My left hand for example.. it was a chore controlling it.. now it is not hard to do whatever my right hand can do.. i am no longer interested in it anymore... and maybe play some pranks that i am a left hander. Lol! Handedness is no longer an issue. Maybe the issue is.. where should i hold my traditional grip?

I even tried to make myself left master eye.. almost there Lol! and sight reading, improvising, ear trainings, I have to admit i am very noob at these and i love it.

This can't go on if i were to be so fast changing in the things i do.

So did God put a desire in me for all these or did i create my own desires? You will not desire the things i desire, and definitely this has got a lot to do with your surroundings, and eventually the things you desire will determine what you do.

Why a philosopher don't do carpenter work, why Da vinci don't work as a main chef in a well known restaurant? We can actually do anything we want to do.. but we don't do it because it is not what we desire.

God created this desire in us or is this desire a part of our choice?

I would say God created this desire.
When we don't like something.. it is rather absolute.. but when we like something.. we sometimes doubt our extent of liking. If the things we do not like can be so definite( at least for me) then it is these things that are "not" that defines what i like.. and it is absolute. Eventually, i am born with it, circumstances might change it, and God creates circumstances.

But if it is this simple that "the things i like to do defines what i will be doing" then... y is there still uncertainty in what we will be doing most of our time(life)? Is it money? Competition? Or there is no such thing as taking a hobby as a job. No one says that.. but actually almost everyone thinks this way. I am naive, i would seem.. but i am not. I am proposing a change. There are trends that occur because people long for the success of the rich. Simple - money defines what we do now. In ideal situations with equal distribution of wealth and appreciation for effort.. our desires will define what we do.. Slackers will slack happily and labourers will labour happily.

So what are you trying to say.

I hate the idea of money. Especially the idea that i cannot live without money. Hate it to the deepest CORE!

Misunderstanding: Then give me your money Jiaxing..

I cannot live without money.. it is a truth. I am so trapped.. I hate it so much and i cannot let it go. Ultimate irritating disgusting revolting! Now imagine.. you are in a world where everything you can eat is glue.. you hate to eat glue.. but thats the only thing you can eat, people will be fighting over glue.. and you don't want to eat gule but you have to eat... glue.

Confirm there will be glue lovers storing glue in their store room in this situation.. and you are like.. ?! What the heck? You eat a ton of glue a day is it? Y do you want more than what you need?
Throw away the glue! Lets start having chef and farmers.

Life in a faulty tap.

Ever on your tap to realize that no matter how many rounds you turn, water don't appear. Well it is time to call the plumber.

What if you happened to be the water held back by the faulty tap, ever ready to gush out yet restricted?

Well, where is the strength you had when you broke solid walls of the Dam? I hear you could drill a hole through a rock by just drips. Lost for words? Where are your guts that made you splash from great heights?

I know what is wrong. The tap is not good.

Do you hate this faulty tap? Ever wished that you could continue your unfinished marathon through the miles of piping?

Well it is time to call the plumber.

Oi! Jiaxing don't you think i don't get what you mean.. trying to provoke the anger out of me by metaphorical means?

Jiaxing: Did i mention your name?

Don't pretend. You think i am a faulty tap that hinders you from displaying your "glamorous" gift. What are you? Picaso la.. hahaha! Get famous when you die. but no i am sure you can't, see what proportion you depict, steady hands and good brains you have, but no skill.

Jiaxing: I mean i need a plumber. Do i need any more critics to turn a few more rounds of this faluty tap and say.. "Look.. i told you the tap don't work!"

Now i am so stupid to see that i am the problem and not able to find solution to this problem! Don't forget you are dealing with a critical brain, and i doubt you have one. Ok, what if i am not the problem, i am actually a Dam holding you up just in case you sweep through my life and drown the most basic of "common sense" in me?
Will any artistic skill give you money? Music? You are not any bright kid who learn piano at 5 and compose music at 9. What makes you any better to be "Wanted" in the society. Disgrace. Stay stucked there in my Dam!

Jiaxing: If you do believe that. Well done, i think you are a step closer to accepting me. Well it is common sense that water gives life. Remember that time when you almost break down when you were handed that admin office job? You were so good a Dam that not even a single moss grow in your desert.. die in your thirst and see that you are missing a big portion of...

Whatever.

Speak

There are days when the person within me talk from the little breath left.
Wa, emo but it is me man.

So tell me jiaxing, who do you think you are?

jiaxing: i am a wasted piece of dump hurled around by this fickle minded boy who can't decide what he wants.

Me: Hey man, it is not my fault that i can't decide! i am hard pressed almost like truck crushing my head. Money. You really think you can go anywhere without money? Nowhere.

jiaxing: Don't need to care! you can't see my life. you know you always wanted it, you wanted to be that kind of drummer. How hard is it? Just play drums well.. very well.

Me: Hey, you don't attack me like that, playing drums can be my life.. if i literally chew my drum sticks to fill my hunger. Everything we do now, why we go uni? You think it is to learn? To improve knowledge? Maybe! But it is all about money.. will this degree get me money.. will this degree promise a job? Yes it will.

jiaxing: yes you can get money from a certain value you provide to the society. But look at me! This is not you! When did this idea of doing things for money "only" get into your head? When you do something well... you, jiaxing can starve to death and you don't care as long as you have did what you are made for.

Me: I am hungry.

jiaxing: ok i surrender. I will wait.. ...when will you realise me. Dont be a slop like you are now. i am not this flop you are portraying, i am the only gene you can find in the universe that defines a special purpose, just like everyone else is special... but unlike anyone else.. i know i am not a sloppy bum like you now jiaxing! Let me out!

Me: Emo...

jiaxing: ...